Day 18: 

Noon

I have been feeling better, happier, odd as it feels to feel happy. I have been feeling it. But I realize when I look at the state of my day to day. I sleep... too much. I have little to nothing of the drive I once had. then, I sleep more. while my mindset has undoubtedly gotten brighter...it seems something is still wrong... something simple.
something not based of fear, or worry. doubt or dread... just the simple point that my life is going on, without you in it. and a piece of me still has not learned to function under the circumstances.
As much as that may be the case, Life is still moving. passing by me like a cold wind, my opportunities souring and losing their potential. regardless of how I feel. Nothing changes the all too simple fact that I have to get it together.
The way I have been living... this half effort broken attempt at living...
Has to stop.