Day One:


Afternoon: 2

Ferret just contacted me.. FERRET. it has been like 2 years since we spoke and NOW she contacts me, tells me that she was thinking of me randomly last night. LAST NIGHT

sometimes I have to wonder what just WHAT exactly is SO important about ME, why such a fight for me. what exactly is Gods plan for me that a remnant of my past comes around in a PERFECT time to TRY and mess with me... I want nothing to do with that, so, I blocked her. but I still wonder... why the need to try and bring me down, what exactly is going on. just what ELSE is going to come up and try and make me slip..its like, I see clearly for a MOMENT and the unbelievable happens to try and cover my eyes again.. perhaps it only happened to show me that its not JUST God tugging my strings, maybe a little warning. Maybe things are going to get way worse, in order for me to get better...