Day one:


Afternoon: 3

This first day isn't even over yet, and it feels like an eternity. It feels like forever, the seconds slosh by so very slowly, Ive eaten, and yet I feel still so very empty inside, all my revelations have done nothing to quell this dead feeling.
my eyes hurt.

worry is crawling up my back to wrap its tendrils around my neck and strangle me, what If I cant find a job, what if I cant stay here... I cant leave now... not like this...
God, help me, knowing so well what I need to do does nothing to ease the fear of how very hard I know it is all going to be...
I miss her so much... its just.. stupid.
regret, regret regret regret..
stupid boy.
you should have listened...