Day One:


Night: 5


Im sure there will be more negativity in here.. but right now... I find myself with a bit of a smile, a familiar song for us playing in my room. I can do this for us, if there is to be an "us" I have to do this. not to say I have to do this JUST so there can be an "us" but rather, I have to do this... because you deserve nothing less then a strong man of God... and I deserve nothing less then to BE  a strong man of God.

I know we both need to grow. A LOT. That much is obvious now. It wont be easy, and the pain is not going to just go away, otherwise it wouldn't be growing..
Thank God for being loving enough to make us take the hard road when we really need to...
but this feeling of dread... that I will never see you again, it is fading a bit.. when in truth I as I was will never see you again, when I see you again I will be new.
I will be Better.

I Promise.